IM BACK!!!!!!

Hey guys!! I'm baaaack!! Well actually I've been back since Monday night... For those of u who have no idea what I'm talking about, I was in Australia! It was a ton of fun. Made some great friends. This week since I've been back has been....interesting? I guess that's a good word to use.... Well I thought my sleep schedule was perfectly fine. I'll tell you more about that in a bit... My dad has drank everyday since I've been back. And according to my mom he was everyday I was gone. All they seem to do is fight. But I'm used to it. I don't know why I was stressing over it. And school starts in about a Month. I don't wanna go): I dunno if taking all honors/AP classes was very smart of me either. I'm a little stressed about it. And I always get anxiety at the beginning of a new school year so. And then there are my friends.... Tayler was partying a lot. Drugs, drinking. You get the drift. And I don't want to see her like that. I know what both do to people. Pot isn't THAT bad. But it's still an addiction. At 16 the only addiction you should have is a favorite tv show or video games. She said she stopped. I don't really believe her. But I guess we'll find out. And then there's Joe. The kid that should hate me and vice versa. But instead of hate I still like him. A lot. Or at least I did. He's moved on. He has a new crush. Well I shouldn't say new. He's liked her for a while. Her names Nicole. That name.... And I got jealous at one point. I've never gotten jealous before. I didn't like it. So that definitely stopped. I've been feeling like I don't sleep at all. I go to bed around 12, 1, 2 and wake up at about 9 or 10. Sufficient  sleep yea? No. Not when  you've been in a country 15 hours ahead for the past month. Well here's where it all comes together. I admitted my feelings. I was a little depressed. Wasn't hungry. Didn't feel like doing anything. But took a nap mid day. I slept. Real sleep. I admit the depression. My appetite comes back a little and I have more life. I admit The stress and suicidalness. I slept genuinely, my appetite still isn't completely back, the stress is relieved, and I feel like doing stuff again. My point? Once I started telling ppl what was wrong everything started to go back to normal. Peaceful. I dunno why they those things connected but I'm not judging so. And that's something else. When I confronted my feelings on my own I realized I wanted them to be there. For a different reason. And I managed to let them go. So now I can be friends, and just friends with joe. No strings attached. Talk to you guys soon. Byeee