Jr's back!

So Jr's home for Spring Break! Yay! Lol. He brought his gf home. So this will be an interesting two weeks. He'll meet Ean tomorrow. Hopefully. And Dakota has a play tonight! My little bro? Yea. It's a Wizard of Oz play. He's a Winkie guard. We'll leave soon to see it. And I think my mom is gonna make me drive. Unfortunately. I really don't like driving. I mean I really don't. Ugh. Me and Ean are good. We got in a fight yesterday. It was stupid. I'm over it. Ye. Well people are coming upstairs. Byeeeee!

Over a year now

So I just realized I've had this blog for a little over a year now! Like a year and half actually. I'm surprised. I've never been able to keep up with something before. Like seriously dude you should see how sketchy my diary is. There are like week and month gaps. And I have the thing with me everyday at school. So yea just wanted to say that.. I dunno why. Lol. Byeeee!

The big boobed blonde known as Trish

So I know some people have seen the GIF of the blonde chick questioning whether dog’s have brains or not. And I have to say that was a dumb moment. And I’m not entirely sure she was being serious. She does troll videos on her channel (http://www.youtube.com/user/blndsundoll4mj). And she’s actually pretty smart. So yea just wanted to put that out there. That she’s not some stupid, big boobed, blonde. I really don’t care if you disagree. Cuz there are tons of people who do love Trish. Yes her name is Trisha Payas. She’s written some books. One’s a memoir, another’s about her stripper life (the stripper diaries), and she has an erotic fiction(Tease) out there too. So yea…. Bye!

Valentine's day!

Ok so hey guys! Yesterday was V-Day! And unlike last year and every other year I actually had a Valentine. That is a guy. Of course my boyfriend Ean! And it was a pretty great day. Unlike last year when I cried a lot and cried on Ashley on the bus… Anyway! He gave me this really cute heart necklace, a sock monkey with nerd glasses that says ‘talk nerdy to me’. It’s so cute! Love that thing. And a heart shaped box of chocolate (of course).  So yea it was pretty great. I’m broke and felt like complete shit cuz I couldn’t get him anything but he said he didn’t care anyway. I don’t think so. But whatever. After school he came to my house around 5 and we watched movies and...stuff. We watched Carrie, insidious 1 and 2 and Wall-E! Carrie was really good. I was like ‘damn that girl is something.’ He went home a little after 11. We had a pretty great night. If I knew people didn’t read this I’d go further into detail but truth is... I don’t want people to know. No one even knows the full horrible slutty details of me and Ron. And I like it that way. I want to tell someone... But I can’t. I can’t tell anyone anything. And it’s really bothering me. Cuz I’m really not stable right now… and Ean isn’t really talking to me so it’s making me feel worse. I haven’t even had a single thought about hurting myself in the last almost 7 weeks I’ve been with Ean. But right about now I kind of crave the pain. I feel horrible. I don’t understand how girls can be whores! I wonder if they feel this awful. Or if they just give no fucks. I wish I didn’t care. I really do. Ugh I hope nobody reads this. I shouldn’t even publish it. Maybe I’ll make my blog private after this; or before. I’m shaking. I really don’t want anyone to see this now. Ugh. Well Valentine’s Day was great. At first. And I wish I could say at the time I was having fun. But I wasn’t. I was just numb. And now I regret it. I mean I regretted it at the time too. Yet I didn’t stop anything that was going on. I mean I wish I could explain my feelings better when I’m actually talking to said person but I can’t. I can blog to tons of invisible anonymous people, but when it comes to talking directly to someone it’s harder. A lot harder. Ugh. I’m gonna go. Byee.

Ean's moms birfday

Had dinner with Ean's family tonight. For his moms birthday. I got her a candle and some lotion and a scarf and a copy of all my books and poems. Except the book that's hand written. I still need to type it. But yea it was nice. I love his family. His parents are pretty great and his little brothers are funny. We had salad and potatoes and green beans and broccoli and rice and they ate steak and there was strawberry cake. And we watched Enders game (which is a pretty great movie). And me and ean cuddled on the couch. And yea. Omg! So funny thing happened. Ok there kitchen table is kinda high. So the chairs are kinda. Well I'm short. I couldn't reach the floor. So I couldn't get down to leave the table. So I was like ummm ean? I'm stuck... And he kinda laughed at me and pulled my chair out. It was embarrassing! But pretty funny. So yea lol that happened. And when we were on the couch I kept poking ean and I was enjoying myself. Haha. He's very ticklish. Then ya kno it was time to go and my night got crappy-ish. Ugh. Whatevs. Byeeeee!

2014 Winter Formal

So I went to the dance last night! The winter formal/ twerp. Girls choice(duh). I asked ean of course. And he said yes, I mean why wouldn't he? Haha. It was fun. Not that many people showed up. And it was in the cafeteria. Like wth? Me and ean and Alison and Alec all danced together and we had fun. Me ean and Brandon took some pictures, me and Alison took some pictures, and me ean Alison and Alec took some pictures. We're pretty cute. Hahaha. But um yea. I had alot of fun with ean. And I looked pretty great. And he was really cute. And yea. Any questions? Leave em below. Byeee

4 jours week-end avec ean

Ok so about last weekend! I did meet Ean's parents Saturday night. It was pretty great. I love his parents! They're accents are too perf. So I went over at about 4:30 and we chilled at his for a while. Then we went out for sushi. Which was actually really good! And I taught Ean how to use chopsticks!! It was fun. Then we went out and saw I, Frankenstein. It was  a pretty kick ass movie. I love it! Buying it when it coms out. Hey did I tell y'all Ean wants to buy me yoga pants for V-day? Lol yea. He just wants to see my ass in a nice pair of pants. Haha. Anyway. After the movie we went back to his house and watched a scary movie and then his dad and him took me home. He kissed me goodnight and it was great. Omg! So he rang my door bell when he dropped me off. It was pretty funny. Then Sunday I came back over and watched the grammys with him. And Monday he came over to my house and we chilled and ate dinner. It was a pretty great weekend. Until I got grounded Tuesday night for back talking. Oh wells. OH!  nd it was a 4 day weekend! Bad weather Monday and Tuesday. Thursday was our one month. We broke up Friday. For all of 4 hours.. Yea. Well Imma go. Byeeeeeeeee