I hate how the people you least expect to hurt you are the ones that rip your heart out and throw it in a paper shredder. Sometimes you forgive them and they manage to reform your heart. But sometimes they reform your heart just to destroy it all over again. For some reason the second betrayal always hurts more than the first. My theory is because you aren't just mad at them this time, but yourself too. The saying goes fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. Or something like that. It's like not only did they let you down AGAIN, but this time you thought things would be different. That they wouldn't do the same thing. That they had really changed. Again, stupid you. Why would they change? They know you'll keep excepting them regardless. Unless. Unless you stop believing in their crap and just stand up for yourself. That's part of what life is about. Not letting others get you down or keep you back from your full potential. Don't keep holding on to a lost cause. True love doesn't depress you. True love doesn't make you wish you'd just die. True love doesn't make you cry day after day because you just don't know what to do anymore. True love makes you want to fly free. True love gives you a reason to live or die for that person. True love makes you cry for joy, not sadness. I know this all sounds stupid. But it was just a moment that hit me. Til next time. Bye.