Dance 2.9.12!!!!

So I have a turnabout winter formal dance 2.9.13!!! A turnabout dance for those of you who don't know is a dance where the girls ask the guys to be their date. It's interesting. Any guys gonna be in the Plainfield- joliet area that night? I'd love to take you. Lol. Jk. I'm not going with anyone(a guy I mean) I don't really like anyone right now. Ill probably go with my bff alison like on homecoming. The dance is candy themed!! I've got my dress and shoes already:) Just gotta get some accessories and figure out how imma do my hair. Maybe just wavy with a waterfall braid. Or those curls you get from using a curling wand. Those are nice. I dunno yet. Maybe I'll show you guys later? I dunno. Wells byeeee:D

Kyle 5(?)

So Kyle is back with zoey. They broke up about a month ago or two. (Did I mention that before?) before that tho for a month he was going back and forth with Ashley. Oh Ashley... (Not my cousin as mentioned in the Christmas post) I met Ashley on the first day of school became friends blah blah blah. Well she's boy crazy. Insanely boy crazy. Kyle broke up with zoey and started flirting with Ashley and of course she fell for it even after Melissa and I told her it was all a game for him and he never liked her. We now he has almost nothing to do with her. And before the whole Kyle thing she dated Steven. Well the whole time Steven really liked Melissa. After a month they broke up. Melissa and Steven dated for like 3 days and broke up. Guess who got back together? Yup. Steven and Ashley. After complaining and complaining about him. Whatever. As Melissa said two idiots back together. Kyle really isn't that bad. He's nice and funny and stuff when he wants to be. Actually had a few convos with him. MelIssa and Kylie(?) and I. So yep. Kyle got back with his girl (who isn't as pretty as I thought) and Ashley is back with hers. Did I mention I'm pretty sure Stevens gay? Yea. Another story for another time. Byeeee

Christmas post!!!! (6days late. Lol)

So how was everybody's Christmas? :) Fabulous I hope. Well mine was pretty good. Helped make dinner and got a crap load of presents. The best gift was the laptop my mom got me. Although the ps3 and games and stuff from my dad were amazing too. Did you know as of like last Friday the ps2 was discontinued? I'm sad:( That was the first Playstation anything I got. I still have it actually. So my sister and Ashley got here Friday night/Saturday morning. We went shopping Saturday. Just my big sister and little sister, my mom, Rebekah, Ashley and I. Then all of us except Ashley went shopping yesterday. I got a bunch of new clothes. 11 shirts, 2 hoodies, and 4 pairs of jeans. I got mint lipgloss, perfume and lotion all from bath and body works yesterday too. The perfume is sparkly and in the shape of the Eiffel Tower:P I love it. Hopefully I'll get new shoes soon. Well I'll catch ya guys later. Gonna go try on this dress. Byeeee:)

Lost cause

Fuck my life. So we talked for the first time in like two weeks. Fucking hate myself. I ruin everything good that happens in my life. I'll never get another bf I'll never get married or have kids I'll die alone. And that's exactly what I deserve. There is zero chance we'll ever even be friends again. And it sucks. A lot. I killed him a little more on the inside. And probably ruined his night. Oh well. He's ruined the past year and a half for me by existing. I wouldn't be surprised if he never trusted another girl. Me and Shannon destroyed him. I'm no better than her. Therefore I have no right to hate her. Only difference is she had enough sense to not talk to him no matter what. And date two of his best friends.  I'm pathetic. Blogging about a lost cause. Everything bad that's happened to me is karma for the bullshit I'm always pulling. For the next two weeks I'll probably stay secluded in my room. I don't deserve human interaction. Hell I don't deserve to have my pets around me. My moms right. It's over and needs to stay that way. I am sorry for..whatever. I would never lie to him about anything. Stretch the truth sure. Lie- no. So this is it. Bye y'all.

Yea so milo hates me. It's okay I guess. I'll deal. That's what I wanted I guess. I guess it's okay. Sucks but. Wish we could be friends. And I'm not allowed to talk to him no more. So my mom said. Oh we'll byee

For good

So me and the bf broke up... Kinda awkward now. I miss him. And all the I love yous and junk. Oh well. And for clarification I broke up with him. Why you may ask. Well we never talk. And it's like the connection between us was gone. I'm the kinda girl that really needs attention because I'm not used to getting it. I can admit that unlike most girls. And he's too busy for a gf. He is. My excuse not his. He actually didn't seem to really care. That's what bothers me the most. Then again 5 months of dating can't beat a year and 5 months of knowing each other. 5 months isn't even long enough to say I love you. It's waaaay Too short. That's what gets most girls hurt. Guys too. They think they love someone when in reality they live the idea of having a companion and not being alone. I think it was a little bit of that for me. I really do love him tho. Or I think I do. I don't even know anymore. My friends say we're sooo cute together. Then they say I can do better. Then they say I should take him back. Then they say you'll find somebody else fast look at you. And trust me- I'm not that great looking. I'm short and fat and don't really look the best. One of my front teeth have been crooked since I lost it and I wear glasses!! I'm a total nerd and a bitch. I know I am. I'm not athletic. I couldn't run to save my life. (Okay so I probably could but that's beside the point) I can't ride a bike or skate because I have no balance and at this point it's kind of embarrassing not knowing how. At this point i need to follow my heart. But i don't know what to do. I'm clueless. I mean I'm happy we aren't together. But I'm sad we aren't. I think we're better off a part. But i wanna be selfish and keep him. I don't wanna talk to him because it's awkward and kinda sad for me. Yet it kills me to not pick up my phone and text him. I made my decision. And I CAN'T go back. So I guess it's over. For good. Bye

Him

So I'm friends with this kid. He's awesome. He's funny and sweet and cool and totally obsessed with basketball. We met on this video game. Sounds dangerous I know. Well he's my age and stuff. (I know this for a fact) And when we talk its different. I find myself smiling a lot and I feel like a total dork. And it's nice talking to him. He's not unemotional like most guys. He uses a ton of smiley faces and says aww and   He says lol and hahaha a lot...lol. He's cool. And he's not one if those guys that's obsessed with a sport and that's all he can talk about. It's just a fact that I know. He plays it a lot... Like last night we were talking and was ranting about someone and I'm like 'I have better things to do and better people to talk to. Like you:)' his reply? 'Awww :))) that made me smile:)' yup. He's amazing. But I kinda feel bad cuz I'm talking to this guy and pretty much flirting with him and I have a boyfriend! But...I dunno. I think it's the attention I like. Especially since my bf started wrestling recently and we never talk. Oh wells. Ideas ppl? Bye

4 long books

Now for those books I'm writing. The first one I'm most passionate about is about a Girl and a boy. But it's not your average love story.  The girl, Adelina, is a sexy, smart, strong willed were panther. She recently moved in with her sister and brother in law in Mt. McKinley, Kansas. (Fictional place I believe) She easily meets and falls for a boy who isn't at all what he seems. There's a problem when someone starts poisoning all the were animals. It's up to Adelina and her sister to figure out what's happening.
And then there is the devilish, blue eyed, smokin hot Damon. He's recently gone through a bad break up. A rather bloody one actually. He told his gal (Haley) he's a vampire. Yes. Damon's a vampire. Shortly after he falls for a girl unlike any other. He knows he shouldn't but he does. Things go awry and he may have lost this girl too. Suddenly he gets a note from anyone and someone. He starts following them to see who it is that knows he killed Haley before its too late. Before he's doomed to a prison cell.
These two teens meet at school and make a bond stronger than any other. Only there's one problem. Adelina's brother in law (Jude) is Damon's older brother. And vamps and weres are forbidden to be together. It's unhealthy. Unnatural. Will they stay together? Will Adelina find out what's plaguing her people? Will Damon find this person before its too late? Find out in '           '. I don't have a title yet. But that's the first one. Don't try taking it. I'm watching you people o_o The next one is about fallen angels. Catriona and her cousins Branna, Emmett, and Teagan are on the run. They're currently hiding in an orchard in one of the many cabins on the land. They're avoiding one man. The man is mysterious and wants one thing. The amulet that gives anyone the most majestical powers in the world. You can almost become a god on earth. It's Catriona's job as a chosen one to keep it safe. Her family beginning with her eight times great grandmother have been on earth. They are still angels. Her grandmother and god both decided it was best for them to work on earth. And so they do. Only allowed to marry other angels god sends. On one of the many ventures away from the cabins Cat finds a boy. A quite charming, sweet, handsome one. His name is Ty. He is not an angel from god. But to her he is. She falls in love with him. She's happy. Everyone is. Branna doesn't approve but is still happy for her. 'She's young, thinks branna, let her have some fun.'  They seem safe. But when Catriona and Teagan get caught by the exact man they're avoiding its up to the other two cousins to rescue them. Things seem hopeless when help comes from an unexpected place.... Find out what happens in 'dream'. The next one is 'Married in hell'. It's about a vampire prince who must marry. He doesn't want to nor does he want his bride chosen for him. But that's the way it is. He so doesn't understand why him, and not his older brother, who's next of throne. He is surprised when the bride brought back to be his is human. Instead of vampire like many of the others he turned down. He's also surprised its the same girl he saw deep in a forest just the night before. He's intrigued by her and falls in love. His quick temper and violent behavior nearly ruin it all though. What will happen? Will they marry? Find out soon. I really like that one. Why I made him so vicious I haven't a clue. The next and last one is 'family debts'. A girl of 16 named shannon is taken from her home by a very old vampire claiming her to pay of a very old family debt owed to him. Once in her new home (or prison some may say.) She is roomed with three girls. One that is very young-Sophie, One maybe 13- carrie, and another the same age as Shannon- Midnight. The girls are nice. She is assigned to babysit the three vampire children in the palace. Along with the young girl to play with them. Shannon soon falls in love with her vampire escort Henry. He loves her deeply. Yet it is forbidden. The ruler somehow finds out and assigns her a new escort. Jerek. He is rude and not at all nice. Yet when she gets home alone and talks to him she falls in love with him. Henry, Shannon, Jerek, Sophie, and Carrie all escape. The kings brother, Jerek, and Henry decide to over throw the king. They go into battle and... Find out what happens soon. So those are it. Catch ya later! Byeeee

Those things called poems

So I've recently posted a few poems (all of which ARE copyrighted. So don't bother stealing them.) and I figured I ought to tell you guys what they're about/what inspired me/what was going thrpugh my mind etc. Okay so the first one 'If only' was written about my crush at one point. Yep. the douche bag Jacob. Well I contemplated giving it to him but thank the gods I didn't. That would've turned out very badly. The second one 'bridge of choices' came to me in a dream. I'm prophetic (I have dreams that tell of the future. Sounds insane I know. But three months before my mother died I knew. One month before I had a dream of her laying in the hospital bed. When she was in the hospital a month later she looked the exact same. Foaming blood and all. Then she died two days later. Dead at 39. Tragic.) and anyway in the dream I had two choices. The first time I made the correct choice and 'jumped off the bridge' I didn't follow what others were doing. The second choice I waited too long to decide correctly and made the wrong choice. I was sucked into something horrible. About two three four months later I had made those two choices. The bad one was quite horrible. I don't know why I did what I did, but I did. I'd rather not say. Maybe one day I will. But not right now. I was grounded about 4 months and tortured by my mom far after. For some reason I was compelled to right the poem. I guess it was something telling me not to forget it. And the third one, 'nothing...' Was written in kind of a haze. It was aimless thinking brought into one thing. After I finished I really hadn't realized what I had done. I showed a couple people and they loved it. It moved them to do things. Some of my friends think I had written it for my boyfriend. I knew that wasn't it. We had been together only a month. If that. But now I think it may have been for him. But a future him. A future us. Beside the poems I am in the process of...four books now? I'll tell more about them in my next post. Catch y'all later. Byeee

Nothing

     My heart is yours to keep. For i am nothing without you. My life lies within your heart. Where I shall stay as long as you like. Nurturing you, loving you, and truly being yours. For i am nothing without you. Keep me. Keep me inside your heart. Hearts intertwined in love. Wondering together on the edge. Hoping to not be ripped apart. For they have come too close to falling before. But they were saved. By a love so strong nothing could change that. Yet as age wears on the bond begins to loosen and there's the fear. The fear of separation. Loneliness. Of nothing. So we must keep out hearts strong. So we can stay together. For without you, I am nothing.

Bridge of choices

The darkness swallows the good

There's nothing left but death, cheating, and misery 

I don't want this

So I jump from the rickety old bridge

Free falling into the icy water below

The good comes back and there's peace.

But not for long.

I suddenly find myself on that same bridge

Facing lies, loneliness, and deceit

Should I jump again?

Or let the darkness take me?

I wait too long and become part of the dark...

If only...

If only you knew you make by day brighter, 

Every time I see you my heart aches,

When you aren't here my day is dull,

When you talk about me or laugh at me,-

You make me feel worthless,

When you talk to me,-

You make me feel nervous, 

If only I could tell you how much I like you,

If only you could read my mind, 

If only you knew. 

Soooo i changed my mind. I don't feel like making myself gorgeous. Maybe tomorrow. Imma just wear leggings, boots, and a tshirt. Wish i had a nice cardigan.... Oh wells. Maybe Christmas. Byeee

Random chiz (or shiz?)

So I thought I'd randomly blog about nothing in particular. So Hollywood Undeads new album comes out in January!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But this'll probably be their sucky album. I just gotta feeling. The two new singles are 'we are' and 'dead bite' the latter is two metal to be them. 'We are' is awesome tho!!! Loves it. So I finally know all of their music. Like fo sho. Thanks to milo. Or as I've recently decided miho. Get it? My ho. Lol. Anyway. I'm excited for that and um... My great aunt is coming for thanksgiving. That should be fun. Hopefully she can meet milo. We dunno tho. She really wants to. I dunno. She's kinda nuts. I dunno if I want milo to meet her. She is awesome tho. Only person I keep in touch with on my dads side. Oh and I have this newfound love for Daniel Murillo. He's pretty hot. Don't know who that is? Sucks to be you. I like High ponytails. Random tidbit there. We have yoga Mondays!! Woot woot. Mondays just got better at school. I need to finish writing my world history paper... Ugh. So boring. So imma look like a sexy beast tomorrow just cuz I feel likes it. Oh! Jenna marbles is hilarious and everyone should watch her vids. Yup. Watch em!!! I love how in one video she says office and sound black. Lols. Yea check her out on YouTube. An check out Hollywood Undead!! I'm part of the Undead army!! And lovin it;) and if asked if I'm pro deuce or pro Danny I'm neutral. Yea the band was awesomemazingness and now they sound more pop than before but they're still good. Deuce should just rejoin the band. One reason I think this album is gonna bite. No deuce! Who knows. We'll just have to wait and see:P so how's life for you ppl? Yea mines pretty good too. Lovin the beau. He's awesii. Also pronounced/ written aussi. Another shorter funner way to say awesome that I use quite frequently. Yup. So get used to it. Haha. I'm a weirdo. And I embrace it! Hopefully I'll be seeing breaking dawn part 2 Thursday/Friday. Idk. Haven't asked. Yet my friend has the tickets and crap... Hmmm.... Yea. Wells byeeee!! Ps. Idc about misspelling and stuff.

Her pt 2

So I guess I wasn't totally fair in my other post about her. I just wrote the negative things. If I made her look bad I didn't mean too. Anyway. She was a great friend. She took me to my first concert even. She was one of the few people who actually sat there and listened to me complain about nothing. And our endless conversations were always fun. And for the most part I was talking about the bands just as much as her. So it wasn't fair to pick out all the bad stuff and write about it. Every friendship has flaws. No one is perfect. And I wish we were still friends. But... That's not gonna happen. She says its all my fault when it's not. I know she talks about me during lunch. Recently- no. But she has. And it's ridiculous. I don't even know why I wanna be her friend still.... I guess it's cause she really is a fun, cool person. And an amazing dancer. I dunno if I mentioned that before. But yea she is. She goes to revolution dance. She takes hip hop. The one competition I went to they placed the highest ever! I think I'm just good luck;) No they just were really good. I'm too much of a klutz to ever do hip hop. I wish we stayed friends over the summer. Oh well. No point in wishing for what's gone and for what you can't have. I'm not naming her because... Well why name her? She knows who she is. I just hope she'll realize how wrong we BOTH were. Byee

My first kiss;)

So I had my birthday/Halloween party today!! Well, yesterday. October 27, 2012!!! That day will forever go down in history! So it was pretty good. I was totally mad at milo at first and so I was kinda mopey and sad. But then I got over it and was fine. So we were playing truth or dare and I was dared to kiss milo. I'm like nooooo. Then a while later he's dared to kiss me. He kisses me on the cheek no big deal. Well when everyone is saying bye he hugs me and kisses me on the cheek again. And my mom is like you shouldn't hide anything just kiss. And I'm like we aren't I'm not into the whole kissing thing Especially since I never have before. She says why and I say it's too awkward. She kisses me and is like we'll it's just that easy. Well right before he runs out the door he hugs me and....kisses me!!! ON. THE. LIPS!!!! Aaaah!!!! I can't stop thinking about it. I mean it happened quickly and....idk.  Even tho I'm still kinda mad at him. My anger is quickly fading. Til next time. Byeee

Judging

I don't think I have the best judgement anymore. I really don't know what I want in life either. Im happy then I'm depressed. I wanna cry I wanna scream. If only he would tell me. Just tell me I'm being irrational. And prove that I'm just being a girl. Maybe, only maybe, then I'd be happy. But I dont think that's gonna happen. I expect more than HE can give. I want more than he'll ever understand. But that's okay. Cause I also love him more than he could ever imagine. He's not my world but he is the best thing in it. I really could use some advice...byee

Love

Here's the things I love;) no particular order
1. My friends
2. Family (mine and my friends)
3. Food
4. My boyfriend <3
5. Working out
6. Yoga!
7. Meditating
8. Incense/candle
9. Lotions and perfume
10. Shopping
11. NUTELLA!!!!!!!!
12. Simple jewelry
13. Animals
14. My dogs:)
15. My kitty tweak
16. Watching movies
17. Scary movies with friends
18. SLEEPOVERS!!!
19. Smooth legs
20. Having fun
21. Dances!
22. Parties!!
23. Blue and green and red
24. Long relaxing baths
25. Hot showers
26. Super cute clothes/shoes
27. Jean and tshirt kinda days;)
28. Long summer nights with friends
29. Beaches
30. Swimming
31. Long car rides
32. Black lights/glow in the dark stuff
33. The <3 symbol
34. Texting
35. Funny pictures
36. Hearing HIS voice
37. Cute accents
38. Knowing I'm loved
39. Thinking about HIM
40. Hangin with the fam
41. Music:)
42. Hollywood undead
43. Rock/metal music
44. Good advice
45. Nina Nesbitt<3
46. My cousin jr
47. My lunch bunch
48. Australia
49. Turtles
50. Netflix
51. iFunny and Reddit
52. My Songza app
53. Making out
54. Long hugs
55. Good huggers
56. Guys who look perf in suits
57. Cute relationships
58. sleeping with sirens
59. Falling in reverse
60. Itch
61. Marina and the diamonds
62. Black veil brides
63. Pierce the veil
64. Bring me the horizon
65. Vans Warped Tour
66. suicide silence
67. most warped tour bands (alternative, rock, metal, screamo, punk, etc.)
68. THE CAB! Angel with a shotgun is too perf
69. (hehehe) dubsteb/house
70. Sneaky Sound System
71. snapchat:P
72. PARTIES(I fricken love dancing in crowds. It's hypnotic)
73. Play fighting with the bf

Gym

So I just stayed after school to make up gym with Alison. Omg was it scary. We walked around for 10 minutes looking for a teacher then found one and waited another 10 for the weight room to open. So we walked on an elliptical for 30 minutes. Ewwwww. I'm soooooo fricken gross. Well, not really. Just a little. But still. I was going HARD the whole time. Alison wasn't:( Anyways. I liked it and wish I could go to the gym more often. Oooh!! And we did yoga in gym class today!!! It's was soooooooo much fun!! I loved it! I miss doing yoga.... Wells I'll catch y'all later;) byeeee

Hate

Things I hate in no order.

1. Katie king

2. Liars

3. Drunks

3. Druggies and drug dealers

4. Thieves

5. Bugs

6. Sales calls

7. Running out of money

8. Babysitting

9. Being stuck at home

10. Cheaters

11. Hoes

12. Assholes

13. Most people. (Like seriously. Most people get on my friggin nerves.)

14. My boyfriend. (<3 it's his job;) )

15. My gym teacher

16. Big dogs

17. Tiny dogs

18. Team sports

19. Bad music

20. C's in school

21. Dumb blondes (I'm friends with many ironically.) 

22. Hollywood undead. (Jk I LOVE them.) 

23. Concerts, dances, parties. (They end too soon;( )

24. FUCKING AUTO CORRECT!!!!!!
25. Planes
26. Trains
27. Pervs
28. Pushy guys
29. Guys who pretend to like you
 30. the end of summer
31. coming back from break
32. goodbyes
33. breakups
34. being grounded
35. Being tickled -_-
 

Fears

So here's everything I'm afraid of in no particular order.
1. Being alone
2. Dieing
3. Dieing alone
4. Heights
5. Falling
6. Bugs
7. Losing the ppl I care about
8. Kissing a boy
9. Doing the deed
10. Graduating high school
11. Not making it into college
12. Getting bad grades
13. Getting bullied again
14. A guy breaking my heart. (Although I do want to experience it. It's part of growing up.)
15. Losing my vision
16. Breaking a bone
17. Realizing my mom is never coming back
18. Ugly clothes (idc how childish this one sounds!!)
19. Burning to death
20. Getting divorced (future fear)
21. Ruining my children's lives (future fear)
22. Losing a limb.
23. Eating a banana seed and growing a banana tree inside of me.

Breaking

I'm thinking about breaking up with milo again:/ I mean I probably won't it's just we like never talk anymore... And it scares me. It really does. Is there someone else? Is he uninterested in me? Is he bored with our relationship? I mean he'll say he's not doing anything but then turns around and won't answer.... And the first, and last, time I broke up with him it was out of fear. I was afraid he was gonna break up with me first. Of course I got over that and we were back together the next day. But still. I'm an insecure, annoying, bitchy, girl. And I know it. I just hope it's not driving him away. And it's long distance. If he really wanted to be with someone else he could. And I'd never know. It's sad to think about these things a week before I plan on seeing him and two weeks or so before our 4 month anniversary.... I mean he said he's happy with our relationship and he loves me but.. I just don't know. I know I love him. But how he feels will always be a mystery to me. And then last night me, tayler, and milo were all talking on Facebook. Me and Tayler started playing truth cause milo wasn't on yet. Well I asked how far she would go with a guy and then she asked me. The truth is: I'd probably only hug a guy. After I said that of course milo was online so he saw it. He kept asking why and all I could say was it scares me. It does. Maybe it's a good scare but still. Being that close to a guy just seems too...I dunno...intimate? I mean I would LOVE to take our relationship to the next step like that but... I'm too scared. I'm afraid it'll happen and he won't like me anymore. Im afraid I'll be a bad kisser. I'm scared because I've never kissed a guy before and he has kissed a girl before. (If you can call Shannon a girl.) I'm scared things will change. And of course it's foolish to think but. Still. Well...I'll try to stop this madness raging in my mind. Til then. Byeee

Choosing...

I feel bad choosing my sister over tayler. Especially since its taylers birfday. But then again my sister will be gone the next three weeks on work and vacation. If only I could see them both... Byee

Milo

Him one night during truth or dare

Him unknowingly on Skype 

Hate this picture...

So heres my boyfriend. Not the best looking guy. But thats not why I like him. He's Super amazing. Trust me we have our problems. But he's still the best guy I know. And I love him to death. Whether he turns gay on me or not (inside joke there. Love ya;) ) and he loves me more than I could ever imagine. I'd say we were meant to be together but. Ya know. 3 months of dating and a year and 3 months of knowing him really isn't enough to say that. I was soooo not interested in him when I met him in Europe. On that beach in Greece. I actually thought he was in a high school group. Me being a middle schooler at the time. Then we talked and walked and talked some more and kinda became friends. I knew he had a crush on me the whole time. I just thought at the time that it was unbelievable. Why would anyone wanna be with me? The poor pathetic little mixed girl. Then it hit me. It's because I'm a beautiful person. On the inside and out. He loves me for me and not for what I can give him. Unlike most guys. He's someone I can trust. Which is rare for me. I've learned to not trust anyone. It always ends in heartbreak for me. For the most part he knows me like the back of his hand. And when I get ungrounded I'm gonna surprise call him on Skype. He should be happy with that. I can't wait for my birthday party. I get to be with him. Bye

Blog color

So I'm making the blog red for a while. It's a special someone's favorite color. Or it was... Hmm... I should ask. I'm not gonna always type in red tho. So yea. Catch ya later. Byeee

Brianna

So I met this girl in 7th grade. She's like...amazing. She's extremely supportive and just understands me. When my mom died she was there. She didn't push me away like everyone else did, like I was a disease and they were afraid they were gonna catch it. Anyway me and bri had some fun times. Fucked with a math teacher we hated, made the best cell ever, and made some kickass pillows and cupcakes. You see. We had all the same classes. Spent lunch at our favorite teachers room and went to FACS club every Thursday. Her grandmother took us home. Haha. Oh that woman... Anyway. When her ex died it was hard for her. But I was there for her like she was for me. There are other things that happened to her that are awefull too but I'm not gonna tell her business. Not without permission anyway. It took me a while to write about her. She's just that awesome of a friend. I don't think I could've made 7th grade without her. Or vice versa. We're still the best of friends even tho we only have biology together. We still make the best of it tho. She's sweet, and funny, and smart, and a total smart ass, and a dork, and short. Just like me;) haha. Guess that's why we're so close. And to be honest last year when she was friends with this girl Alyssa I felt like I was being replaced. Idk why... The chick was def not something to be jealous over. But I was. I guess I was just too used to it being just me and Brianna. Now she has other friends and I couldn't care less. She's a runner. Although you couldn't tell by her looks..idk what it is about her...maybe the shortness? Idk. But that's bri. In all her pale, blonde, curly haired glory. I'm happy we're friends. Til the next post. Byeee

Now

As it gets closer to my birthday I wonder. What will it be like? Who will come? Will it be awesome? Will my costume look good? Will everything go according to plan? I guess only time will tell. My party is October 27th from 6-12 at 2318 Hastings dr. At this point guys are automatically invited. Tons of chicks will be there. Music, food, games, completions. Maybe even a movie and video games. I can kick some serious butt at mortal kombat. Everyone be warned. Lol. Well my weekend sucked ass. Hopefully next weekend will be better with taylers birthday party and stuff. Oh wells. Ttyl. Byeeeee

Side note

I think I know who and where my first kiss shall happen. Not as obvious as most will assume either. I want it to happen. Haha. Well catch ya later. Byeeeee

Random

Well I've been pretty emotional today. Mood swingy and stuff. And no I'm not pmsing. I've just been thinking alot. I don't think I will go to Australia this summer. This is my first year in high school and the one that matters the most. I need to focus on school. I will try to go next year. No promises. Alison wrote the sweetest thing ever in her blog about me;) And...milo....I love him. But..I dunno. Things have changed. We've been together for 3 months. We've known each other for over a year. I am soooo lucky to have met him. And theres stuff I miss. That he used to do. Bed time routine, after school routine, random conversations. Now...it's almost like he's trying to make me breakup with him. He does stupid stuff that he knows is gonna make me mad. And I don't get why. Oh well. This week sucks so far. Well til next time. Byeeee.
Ps. I say like and well ALOT.

Homecoming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PARTY!

Sorry for greeting to you all so late!! So homecoming... It was...amazing!!!!! The music, the food, the decorations! I loved it. The only bad thing was the dancing. Omg so much grinding. Chicks on chicks, guys on chicks, guys on chicks in chicks. It was terrible. I looked AMAZING and do did all my friends. My feet were KILLING me after the dance. I mean sexy 5 inch heels have an effect on your feet. Especially when you dance like I was;) lol. I spent the night at Alison's after the dance. We Skyped milo:) He made me SO MAD!!! He didn't go to his homecoming!!!! AFTER he made the point he didn't wanna go to mine he wanted to go to his. Then he didn't even go! Ugh. I hate boys. Jk. I love boys. Jus to clarify on all those ppl who think I'm les. IM STRAIGHT. K? So yea. Ttyl. Byeeeee

Homecoming week day five

Blue and white day today... Well there was def a lot of blue. It was obnoxious. Well the hallway decorating competition was last night and the juniors hall was def the best. Some random fucking sophomore walked down our hall (the freshman hall) ripping down streamers. Then towards the end of the day ripped off the huge ballon entrance to the hall. And when I was walking to French the juniors hall smelled like pot. BAD. But anyways. We had a pep rally. It was... Interesting. The poms team did a great dance, a cheerleader was dropped during their routine, the teachers won tug o war, and they announced homecoming queen and king for each grade. Kourtney won for freshman>:( Oh well. Hopefully next year a better person will be chosen. So yea. Gotta get up early in the mornin to shower and all that and go into work with my cuz so I can get my hair and nails did. Lol. So excited for homecoming:D byeeeeee

Homecoming week day 4

So today was super hero day. It was AWESOME. There were like a million batmans tho:/ Ugh. I was batgirl!!! I painted the mask on my face and it was super cute. Got complimented a lot. Some dude held the door open for me. It was odd... Sweet but odd. I didn't really see who it was sadly. Oh wells. Funny thing was he let the door go after I walked through even tho other girls where walking through the door. A lot of ppl stared at me today too. It was creepy. Tomorrow should be cool. It'll probably suck tho cause they have a bunch if rules they didn't have all week. Ugh. Whatevs. Byeee

Homecoming week day 3

So today wasn't bad. Everyone wore a jersey or tshirt or hoodie or something. That was about it. Then there was like a huge group if girls in pink maybe 80 or more. And just as many in turquoise. They were the juniors and seniors I think. It was cool. So yea. Lets see how tomorrow goes:) I'm bat girl!!!! Byeeee

P.S my dad wants to take me to get my hair done for homecoming!! Hmmm...... Where to go...

Her

So I was friends with this girl last year. She was super nice and cool and we shared some of the same interests. Shes a dancer and super smart. Only problem- she was totally obsessed over boy bands. That's ALL we ever talked about. At first it was okay. You know no big deal. Then after going most of the school year like that it just got annoying. And I realized I wasn't paying much attention to my other friends. (I noticed well before the end of the year.) With her she has to have your full attention all the time. And if you aren't super excited about something like she is then you aren't being a supportive friend. Sounds insane right? Well I stayed her friend anyway and made it quite clear she wasn't my only friend. Over the summer we didn't talk much. Partly because I had better things to do than talk on the phone and the other part because u didn't know when or if she was home. Now at school things are totally different. She barely acknowledges me in the halls. And I don't get why. She says there's nothing wrong but I know there is. It's almost like since we started highschool she's just too good for me now. And no I'm not just being one if those weird obsessed friends. This isn't the first time she's done this and I'm not the only person. I'm not mentioning her name. She knows who she is and so do some of you. It would just be nice if she actually took the time to say 'hey! how's life?' But that ain't happenin. Byee

Kyle 3/ homecoming vote

So Kyle and Zoe were nominated for homecoming queen and king:) of course I voted for them. I wish I voted for marissa tho. I would NEVER vote for Kourtney tho. Or her date Matt. But yup. That's that. Byeeeee

Homecoming week day two

So I'm really disappointed today:( I mean I went all out for it. Blue tights, tutu like skirt, boots, shirt off the shoulder, teased high pony tail, a bow headband, ton of bracelets, nerd glasses, and dramatic makeup with red lips. 80s day is awesome. There was a total lack of school spirit today. There are 600 kids in our freshman class alone. Maybe MAYBE 200 ppl dressed from the 80s. Mostly female. I've hypothesized since tomorrow is sports day everyone will have a jersey or sports tshirt cause its so simple. Thursday being super hero day will be similar to today with very few ppl dressing but the ones that do will go all out. And Friday will be like yesterday with a TON of school spirit since we have to wear our school colors blue and white. Well we'll see if my hypothesis is correct. Byeeee

Homecoming week day 1

Today was class color day!! Freshman wore purple, sophomores wore red, juniors wore orange, and seniors wore yellow. So me and my freshman self had to wear purple. It was fun. There was a TON of school spirit. The day was great. Except for the fact people were being tagged. Mostly sophomores and some juniors were taking paint of their class color and were putting it on us freshies. They had glitter, silly string, and tape too. Yes. I typed that correctly. TAPE. It was ridiculous. Two ppl got taped together freshman (duh). And of course they were throwing change at freshman too. I didn't have any of these terrible things happen to me thankfully. But I was terrified all day thinking something was gonna happen. Well tomorrow is 80s day!!!!! So excited:) can't wait to see how that goes! Til then. Byeeeee

My weekend :D

So my weekend... Saturday I went shopping with my mum, cousin, and nephew. I got new shoes:D When we got home I got paid. And we all went to the movies. Minus my mum. She was my dad. We saw total recall!!!! Omg amazing movie!! So good. After that I downloaded a bunch of songs on the computer. Everyone should use mp3 rocket!!! It's awesome. After that it was about 12 am so I went to bed.
Sunday I just kinda hung out at home. Put all the music on my phone that night. Took Nathan home. Downloaded more music and put it on my phone. And that was about it for my weekend:)
Sorry for telling you all so late. Blog was down all weekend.

Today

Today was a fun day. Talk more about it tomorrow. I'm super tired. Byee

Homecoming info!!!!

So I've got everything for homecoming. Almost. I've got a gorgeous dress, shoes that are sexy as hell, some jewelry. I know how I'm doing my hair and makeup. I want these elbow length gloves. Sounds weird I know. But it'd look great. All I really need are a date and to buy my ticket. Probs jus goin with friends tho. Figures. But. Imma still have fun, dance like no tomorrow, flirt with who I want, dance with who I want, and check out hot guys. It's my freshman homecoming and NO ONE can stop me from having an unforgettable night. I'm getting my nails done Friday.  Aaaaaah!!!! I'm soooooo excited:D The homecoming is 'Dancing in the dark'. It sounds so cool right? Everything is glow in the dark with black lights. So excited. I want my nails to glow.... Wonder if they can do that. Maybe I'll stop by hot topic and get the clear black light nail polish and bring it when they do my nails. Maybe I'll get acrylics? Hm. I'll think about it. Til next time. Byeeeee

Nates partay

Ok so nates party was fun. It was nice to hang with the fam. The cake was pretty good too...lol. Well I'm stuck watching Nate, Dakota, and Sam. While my mum is with my dad. Ugh. Well imma watch awkward. Ttyl byeeeee

Nates party

So far the birthday party for my 8 year old nephew is going great:) We went to a pizza place and I'm stuffed!!! Me, my parents, my little bro and sis, my cousin, and my nephew and his parents aka my bro and sis in law. Now we're gonna have some cake and icecream, give presents, and just chill. Til later. Byeeeee

Tayler being tayler

Nothing like having a friend mad at you. She is sooooo insecure. It's ridiculous. She needs to get over herself. She is seriously ruining my Friday. Ugh. All over me saying she's becoming a third wheel. Didn't mean it meanly. And she says it all the time anyway. Maybe if she were to actually talk to us more often and hang with us that wouldn't be the case. But whatevs. Byeeeee

Kyle2

So I found out who's dating Kyle!! It's Zoe. She's really pretty. So I guess it's okay she cheated. Forgive and forget right? I know I probably wouldn't handle that very wel. Anyways that's an update on k. Byeeeee

TGIF

Yay!!! It's Friday!!!! Got plans with my dad.... And a birthday party today and tomorrow:D hope today goes well.

Kyle

Kyle is a kid in my world history, English, and math classes. The second day of school he was an ass and now there are a lot of stolen looks. What up with that?! Ah well. If he ever does read this I only have one thing to say: if you're girlfriend really wanted to be with you and only you she wouldn't cheat. Sorry bro. But he likes ICP which is awesome. Insane Clown Posse. Aaah they're amazing. Byeeee

Jake

So I had a crush on this kid once. Like major crush. Until like the last couple months of school. Then like the last week it rise to the surface with a vengeance. I got his number, hugged him, took a picture with him after promotion. Everything was good. Until I told him I liked him...he didn't even answer. Which was worse than saying "you're an ugly creep delete my number and never speak to me again." and now I'm happy I never see him. And he's a jerk anyway. Idk why I ever liked him. Just distracted by his hotness I guess. Cause he's really not smart. Hes pretty funny. And popular. And athletic. Ugh. But I'd NEVER date him. Even when I was crushing on him I wouldn't. And no it's not because I'm the nerd and hes the prep, I'm the peasant and he's a knight, it's because he could never take a relationship seriously. And I'm happy with the one I'm in now anyways. So Jacob Buchner. I'm over you. Forever and always. Kat.

Megan

Then I've got my bestest friend and partner in crime Megan. We plan killings and talk about Katie king. Lmao. We would NEVER really kill anyone....on purpose... Haha. I loves her and idk how I would have gotten through 8th grade whithout her. She's my height, with blonde hair and blue eyes, fair skin, and a belly button piercing. Haha. She loves boy bands and is innocent until proven guilty.

My besties

So I have two best friends. I don't know what I'd do without these girls. First there's Alison. She's loud, she's obnoxious, she's a whore, she's the whitest person I know. But she's got a side most ppl never see. Mostly because she's too afraid to open up. She's an amazing poet and has serious potential there. She's 5'10" or taller with long legs, fair skin, a small waist and chest, blonde hair and blue eyes. If she didn't have her glasses and actually bothered to look cute she would be the hottest thing around. She's my twin<3 Haha. Although I'm the exact opposite. I'm 5'2", mocha colored, could be skinnier and big chested, with brown hair and light brown eyes. But our attitude and everything else is def the same. Then there's Tayler. She's almost a third wheel now. Since she moved away from us. Its not her fault but thats another story. She's like the child and the parent. She's more of a follower while Ali and I are definitely leaders. But she's gettin there. About 5'7" with natural white skin, could be skinnier and totally flat -though she swears shes not lol- with naturally blonde hair and hazel eyes. She's really creative. The things she thinks up. And super caring. If you're down and don't know what to do she's the one to go to. She's super obsessed with boy bands and lives to dance. We all love dancing but she's the only one actually taking a class. She's got music and dance, I've got nature and writing, and Ali has...well she likes sleeping and romances. Haha. Well that's all I got. Til next time. Byeeeee.

My boyfriend

So I'm with this guy. He's....amazing. He difinitely deserves better than me. But we're happy together and hopefully we'll stay that way. Not forever. Nothing lasts for forever. Anyways I love him. More than myself. No I'm not saying I'd die for him or anything. Because when it comes down to it: who would? No one that's who. We say we would do anything for a loved one but NO ONE is selfless enough to do that. I know I'm sure as hell not. But I do love him enough to do almost anything else. He's my world. Perfect in ever way. I sound like a stupid love stricken teen. But I really care deeply for him. If someone had told me the day I met him in Greece on that beach that we'd be so close now I'd probably call them a liar and get upset. We've grown together. And no he's not the best lookin guy out there but he makes up for it in other ways. He's funny, and sweet, and he's a fricken genius. I just wish we lived closer. But that's nothing we can control. I'll be driving soon enough and they're wont be much of a problem. Well that's enough about him. Ttyl. Byeeeeeeee.

First post:)

So this is my first time posting anything. Basically this I gonna become a journal kind of. I'll try to post everyday but I'm making no promises. A week from Saturday is my homecoming:D I'll tell you guys how that goes. I don't really care if this gets read or not. It's not a big deal. So yea. My name is Kat and I'll be your entertainer for the next year. Lol. I guess that's all I have to say.... . Well type ya later. Byeeeeee.